Update from Qudus' blog

May 27, 2007

to HAVE or to BE



TO HAVE is a verb, to have is equally a doing word, it is quite imaginable that, "To have" which in other words could be to possess, to acquire, to own or to hold. All these still brings us back to the ability to be in possession of anything exterior to the peripheries of our contours, being it intellectual, material or spiritual or superficial, it still bring us to the point where there is an action that triggers our awareness for a certain need, so to have can in a shorter phrase, be explained as the action that takes place outside the "self" in oneself, there is always an action that occurs before this, either metaphysical or metamorphose change reaction takes place. 

One can't own all the golds of this life, the diamonds and houses and cars and tall building or have the knowledge of ten languages, the knowledge of sciences of poetry without a special effort from the part of this being, a special effort that puts him on the run, an effort that makes him remain awake all night, or the one that even makes him loose his friends and family, an effort that makes him stand up and go and run and jump and fly not because he loves to, but that is the ritual it takes to have those possessions.

TO BE, or to exist, to have oneself, the word BE and the questioning of a human being about his or her existence automatically distinguish him from just an animal and marks the beginning of his purpose in this mother earth. In the same manner, a group of individuals coming together to form a grouping, will not be validated, until they are able to define their being, their existence and purpose.

Many a time there has been a strong confusion of TO HAVE with TO BE, that is why some will say, i am the director of an institution, i am an Artiste or i was an army, but no one have i met and on his business card, inscribed HUMAN BEING or A BEING, whereas that is what we are for real and nothing more, all those qualifications does not validate our purpose in life but what we do with these posts or possessions is what actually brings out the being in our human. 

"To be", self, the ability to understand that no two human beings comes from the same internal world, each of us has our own world inside of us and every where we go, that is the only world in which we are ambassadors of, we are the god, the president and the decision maker of this world, the moment this is understood life will become easier and the respect for others will reign. Ghandi said "BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE IN THE WORLD"

MY LOVER!


NOW ITS BEEN HOW MANY DAYS AND NIGHT
WAITING FOR THE BETTER TIMES TO COME
CONTINEOUSLY SITTING IN FRONT OF THIS OLD COMPUTER OF MINE
CONSTANTLY WAITING FOR THAT LONG EXPECTED MAIL
FOR THAT KNOWN SEPULCHRAL VOICE ON MY PHONE...

ITS BEEN HOW MANY FULL MOON PAST
MEDITATING ON THE ODDUR OF OUR BEST MOMENTS
SLEEPING AND NOT WILLING TO WAKE UP
'COS THIS IS THE ONLY MEETING PLACE LEFT FOR US
FINALLY WAKING TO OUR LOVE SONG ON THE RADIO

"for how long will i remain fidel
knowing that my old age will soon send the youth away
for how long will i remain in the rain
when there are shelters available for me"


THIS MORNING I'M WALIKING AWAY, RUNNING AWAY,
SPRINTING AWAY FROM MY BOREDOM
I WANT TO LOOK BACK TO SEE A LIFE WELL SPENT
WITHOUT REGRET DURING MY OLD AGE
ITS BORING TO BE LONELY KNOWING THAT YOU ARE NOT ALONE

FORGET OUR PAST MY LOVER, FORGET ME FAST
SEE OTHER COLOURS, SMELL OTHER ODDURS
ITS BEEN HOW MANY NIGHT HAVE I WET MY BED
ITS BEEN HOW MANY TWILIGHT HAVE I SOAKED MY PILLOW
FROM TODAY I WANT TO RE-WRITE MY DESTINY
TOMMOROW MUSN'T LOOK LIKE YESTERDAY

I SHALL OFTEN SEND YOU PRESERVATIVES MY LOVER,
NO LOVE MAKING WITHOUT CONDOMS
DON'T TELL ME ABOUT THE GUY YOU MET AT THE BUS STOP
DO NOT TELL ME ABOUT HOW HE MADE LOVE TO YOU
BUT LET ME OFTEN HEAR FROM YOU
AND TELL ME YOU ARE HAVING FUN... just like i do